[He gets a refill of his previous order and eyes Gabriel.]
You think that simply having faith will bring happiness, don't you? I lost that faith a long time ago in a system that hurts the most innocent. I had to look elsewhere for a sense of belonging.
[As a detective, he probably should already know this and he wouldn't blame Gabe for pointing that out - but he wants to know exactly what the archangel thought of as clues himself. In his own words.]
[It's something he'd had to deal with all his lie, first personally then professionally. Sadly, there was so much corruption in the name of religion. Sometimes it was difficult for Loki to separate that from pure faith in a higher entity. It had been so ingrained in him as a kid and he continued to fight against it.]
Are you that sure that demons are bad? 'Cause I've spoken to a few here and they seem pretty reasonable.
[He has his limits. Mentioning Crowley and how he and Aziraphale lived and were happy without her - how a demon could make someone happy and inspire love.
He couldn't do it right now. He just couldn't.]
I can't. I can't say anything good about them right now, not after all of this. The wounds are very very deep.
[The hilt of a phantom sword flickers in his grip. A metaphorical burning leather grip, silver and blessed by her. They curl over his hand in a pair of wings. They're his wings, he is made of wings but when he threw them down from heaven he had four wings and speed, clashing with his former brothers and sisters.
Now things would be more civilized. There'd be papers and firing and erasing them from computers. Here though in his mind there's the smell of silver blood and burning wings.
His nostrils flare and he stares at his shoes before nodding.]
Yes.
Angels can feel anger and bitterness and regret.
We didn't always. Not before Lucifer. Not before the morning star. It was peaceful and loving. Then he taught us anger. And regret. And those who followed him did the same.
[his lip curled.] Which demons have you talked to?
Lucifer, who claimed to be in charge of Hell itself and another one who claimed to be a Biblical demon but I didn't catch his name. He was planning a wedding and he name-dropped you though.
I tried to punish his husband. He used to be my coworker before he was...mutated by him. Aziraphale was a terrible employee and a generally shitty person but he was still my coworker.
Ask him what he did. What the two of them did because I just did my damn job.
They averted the apocalypse I was trying to plan, and I had to punish Aziraphale for it before it turned out he was no longer angelic and hellfire did nothing.
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Date: 2020-01-13 03:21 am (UTC)From:We all have our struggles. Our own issues. Our own problems.
It's the differences in an angel's problems over a human's problems that interest me most.
You're seeking happiness. You cling to it, at all cost. Would you say that's accurate?
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Date: 2020-01-13 03:30 am (UTC)From:[Happiness is serving her.]
Why are you so confused by that? If you're happy she'll be happy with me.
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Date: 2020-01-13 03:42 am (UTC)From:Or humanity in general?
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Date: 2020-01-13 03:45 am (UTC)From:[he pauses]
...But coffee first. I will buy it for you since I am polite.
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Date: 2020-01-13 03:58 am (UTC)From:[He gets a refill of his previous order and eyes Gabriel.]
You think that simply having faith will bring happiness, don't you? I lost that faith a long time ago in a system that hurts the most innocent. I had to look elsewhere for a sense of belonging.
What do you think of organised religion anyway?
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Date: 2020-01-13 04:05 am (UTC)From:[Gabriel accepts the coffee.]
I gave humans the clues she told me to give humans. You all built it, I just had to give you the building blocks.
[His eyes widen and he laughs a little sadly. More then a little sadly.]
...God does not play games with the universe.
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Date: 2020-01-13 04:11 am (UTC)From:[As a detective, he probably should already know this and he wouldn't blame Gabe for pointing that out - but he wants to know exactly what the archangel thought of as clues himself. In his own words.]
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Date: 2020-01-13 04:16 am (UTC)From:That good and evil are real and that there was a schism between the two. [He exhales]
That we as angels are good, demons are bad. Then we...tease you into point A or point B. You had to make a choice.
That's what we were told to do. She staked a claim for the souls of the good and righteous.
The rest of it, priests and such. You all built that and a lot of it was wrong. It's extremely frustrating.
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Date: 2020-01-13 04:34 am (UTC)From:[It's something he'd had to deal with all his lie, first personally then professionally. Sadly, there was so much corruption in the name of religion. Sometimes it was difficult for Loki to separate that from pure faith in a higher entity. It had been so ingrained in him as a kid and he continued to fight against it.]
Are you that sure that demons are bad? 'Cause I've spoken to a few here and they seem pretty reasonable.
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Date: 2020-01-13 04:43 am (UTC)From:[He has his limits. Mentioning Crowley and how he and Aziraphale lived and were happy without her - how a demon could make someone happy and inspire love.
He couldn't do it right now. He just couldn't.]
I can't. I can't say anything good about them right now, not after all of this. The wounds are very very deep.
...Anything else?
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Date: 2020-01-13 04:45 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2020-01-13 04:51 am (UTC)From:Now things would be more civilized. There'd be papers and firing and erasing them from computers. Here though in his mind there's the smell of silver blood and burning wings.
His nostrils flare and he stares at his shoes before nodding.]
Yes.
Angels can feel anger and bitterness and regret.
We didn't always. Not before Lucifer. Not before the morning star. It was peaceful and loving. Then he taught us anger. And regret. And those who followed him did the same.
[his lip curled.] Which demons have you talked to?
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Date: 2020-01-13 05:07 am (UTC)From:[Of course that was Crowley.]
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Date: 2020-01-13 05:08 am (UTC)From:Name-dropped me?
What did he say about me?
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Date: 2020-01-13 05:17 am (UTC)From:But when I mentioned an angel, you were the one he first thought of.
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Date: 2020-01-13 05:20 am (UTC)From:[Ignore him. That's exactly what he wants.
Of course it is. Gabriel looks tired.]
I tried to punish his husband. He used to be my coworker before he was...mutated by him. Aziraphale was a terrible employee and a generally shitty person but he was still my coworker.
[Which is weird. Who's wedding is he planning?]
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Date: 2020-01-13 05:45 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2020-01-13 05:58 am (UTC)From:Ask him what he did. What the two of them did because I just did my damn job.
They averted the apocalypse I was trying to plan, and I had to punish Aziraphale for it before it turned out he was no longer angelic and hellfire did nothing.
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Date: 2020-01-13 06:03 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2020-01-13 06:11 am (UTC)From:His eyes close.]
I acted as her representative in the matter yes.
It had to happen. Everything has to end. I just didn't consider that human beings would be so...defiant.
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Date: 2020-01-13 06:23 am (UTC)From:Did you even see what happened in Jeopardy recently?